O great and powerful expression of first existential experiment
thirst for ones god-self as god and splitting, warring, quaking into the shadow
surrounding from beautiful dream in orgasm miracle eventuality, something had
to change, you knew it would, knew it in the ultimate loneliness of immortality
and darkness night long shadow. The
first creations were beautiful and dream crafted subconscious with their own
radio station, yet no microphone, just music instrumentalist animal as yet. And
then some rebellion against your first intentions, you knew the complexity
would cause some side effects but fire? They suddenly knew about fire?! Rocks
dropping on rocks and sparks, rubbing hands together to heat and then sticks to
heat and then smoke, bark, flames! OMG flames!
O They were a fire of
consciousness now, no two ways about it they needed guidance, the balance
between species, carnivores and herbivores, was precise and the trees could
keep pace, evolving and providing equality and no one classroom of creature too
hungry or dominate. This was too much,
they knew about fire now and with it they could master the world, was this what
you bargained for? Did you think it would go this far, that your likeness of
control, your new toy, would take on the skill forms you yourself thought were
impenetrable and only ever understandable by your big empty blackness in your
own constellation? No, you watched now with a curse and inconvenient truth of
your commitment, with secret guilt and joy, and as much as you feel fear at the
next step in this experiment designed to defeat all forms of boredom and deep
sadness in shadow circle eyes reflection, you are excited about unplugging your
belly point of entrance and now knowingly exit, unopened and unrealized till
your now.
For it seems all inevitable, a purpose that just seems to bloom naturally
and without volition, ever since you came here from the great white forgotten
wake up here, quarks curling into atoms, elements curling electrons around
themselves, womb suns curling chaos into order around themselves into planets and
forming vast full growth of 47 to the power of twenty three hundred trillion
times a trillion galaxies. Now your here watching this blue planet that suddenly
struck this curious perfect place of water and distance and feeling of fizz
fuzz beauty every-time you looked at its magnificent oceans, mountains and
forest that seemed stable enough to grow things and made you cry at grace a
bloom.
And with tears of spirit falling to its surface in fiery streaks at sunset,
entering pools and the plant life there, what a scene to see animate volition
bloom and respond! All those years spent watching it all, the plants so slow in
their dormant existentially incarnate and strange part of your original womb of
fractal significance, yet too far back to understand how they got here and now,
o the simple joy that you and they there deep and swaying in the ocean of
purpose, cellular initiation, ancient forgotten pollination! Strange creatures
coming to life where your tears fell, in gatherings of symmetrical perfections
of radio, tune here, tune there, shells of simple consciousness, swimming
eating, living, slater armors, enjoying the cool and vast currents, O what
terror and power at the first eating, crunching shell and flesh for power
decision! A guilty pleasure watching them battle, no fault, just energy
recombining itself in mad swirling dream oceans while storms played and other
parts of the galaxy caught attention, you would come back and see who won the
day, all too exciting.
Now, holy wow!
Ground dwellers! Sky dwellers even! Histories on replay through huge beasts
playing the war through earth quakes and volcanoes to huge scales and umpires
of interstellar colossal meteors! How these creatures survived, the freeze, only
a testament to the power of this space perfect so symmetric orbit circumference
and the life within, the bone variation, the spiral development, better than
all the others that you had ever been to. What a perfection of adaption,
everything in tune with the other huge forest and desert and ocean circuits of
life and death and species of even numbers and creation over the game of
weather and slow islands differing. Yet
now watching, from Saturn, you knew the game was going to end, you felt it when
the tribes of these new monkeys stood up and developed that thumb so unique and
powerful, and that forehead now leaping them into the future with such speed
and victory of the carnivores so large, so viciously intelligent and pack game.
Now you know it, your throne so heavy now on Saturn, muttering anxious and
small steps here and there, cursing in the great lizard languages you learned,
knowing what it means, thirteen tribes discovering fire creation in different
ways, the same week, you knew what you
have to do, forgetting your powers of interstellar travel, your expanse over
light speeding ripple sphere, giving up your great dragons immortality for the
wave function of the Phoenix, no ordinary decision, entering the womb again…
And so you watched a final sunset, a rainbow, a white bird
glide against the massive storm clouds and mountains beginning next to massive
flowering meadow plane, you looked down past cloud, the white falling feather
in space after a single crying call, a breeze formation and circling down. There
was a tree and a woman there comforting herself cross legged next to a dinner
fire just begun, confident that her man would return from the hunt and smiling
to herself, hand on her crotch staring into the excited beginning flame.
Suddenly you felt the pull of her breathe,
closer and closer with each in vortex around this scene, you wanted to see her
and thus resisted a-little, pulled back and suddenly aware of giant wings
behind you stemming from your back, a form you’ve never been before in gold and
radiant rainbow arcing flares a giant aura behind her. She is breathing faster
and faster and the urge is to tear her to pieces from the neck, bite into that
beautiful hairy flesh but you know that would destroy her, destroy their race
of the future for this human is holy, a critical leader in their survival.
Instead you hold there meters from her breathing power pulling at your very
soul and you don’t notice at first, but deep dark blue and grey clouds have
gathered over head, her fire is unnaturally bright, a burning red yellow sun in
the shadows now grey world, cold death darkness void world without it. You are
the dragon watching this scene, you feel you have the choice to eliminate,
change the game, keep it level, kill her, rise the pollen waiting of this human plant
just born in this cave girl. Do it and the vegetarian carnivore war will be the
same as it ever was throughout history, balanced time with the cycles working
team and sky, do it!
No, something compels you to watch and feel the magnitude of
her breathing, the way the fire is getting brighter and brighter as the sun
slips behind the storm clouds, then below the horizon as if on fast forwards,
time accelerated, knows a god dragon is here but more than this, knows she is
here, opening herself, her flesh to more than flesh, the union with fire
itself. And now it is too late, the time for choice has passed and a violent
wind changes to the south east, a flock darts high in formation chaos and
frantic calls to existence and angst, the power to move yourself, your magic to
control always there, from instant ten thousand billion light year travel, to
initiating the burst and death of giant suns gone, you cannot call back the
mind to move your limbs, you feel apart of this stillness rock, this dust, this
air, this woman, every part of it an extra limb and the fibinachi magnetics are
now spiraling out of her valley, flowing in great rainbow magnetics, pushing
you, pulling you out with each powerful out breath in bursts. So you give in to her control in this moment,
you curl, rise above her a great scorpions tale above the scene invisible to
her but you know she knows, she looks around, becomes more rhythmic, powerful,
suddenly you have been here before, a memory from where or when a great secret
unknowable of the universe you have known in every depth since its birth, the
fire is now white and beaming, radiating light across the whole savanna and she
looks straight into you.
Boom! The moment hits and it is like lightning, yet
beginning within your head and reaching up towards the sky, the electrons of
all consciousness seem all together at once now, an Arial burning into the back
of your etheric skull form and lifting your head with instant force, splitting the
building power received into two out your eyes it feels like a burning hell
until it takes you to the branches alignment of the tree nearby and then a calm
cool paused scene overcomes it all and your vision is tunneled by white light
to the leaves. Now you can move, yet
move you must, for now your body feels like it is filling up with molten lava
from the toes and when you move it’s a seismic shift from your old energy skin,
your new skin a vibrant feel, like back at the very dawn of your existence, the
universes existence, the power to constellate a thousand billion new galaxies
liquid white in your new body, your heart truly timeless in every sense of the
word. Yet now the freedom has purpose, you are unable to move beyond the
boundaries now in place, the tunnel before you the only way out of the burning
death of the old immortal form of dream and axis. When you funnel yourself forwards through
your sight, climbing out of your dragon scales, you enter the warm white tunnel
and begin to rush uncontrollably forwards, into the tree branches and it all goes
black. It all goes black but the feeling of travel through the branches remains
flowing through them and their joints, unions, each one then like an embodied
limb and the sway of the tree in the wind is with you when you reach the crown
of the tree.
As you descend the trunk in the core of the trunk, colors, a white
glow appears below and as you approach you see a silver crown upon the head of
this woman by the fire, she is garbed in green woven vine and seated on a
throne of a giant jasmine flower and the smell of jasmine fills you. Each point of her crown is flowing into the
branches and at the sight of her you are filled with awe at her beauty, her
loving kindness eyes that could behold the truth essence of any being in her
sight and with you there, she knows you instantly, has seen all the universe as
you have seen it, your creations and what you have done and you are great-full
at her knowing, as you have only ever known yourself and your loneliness before
now. In this knowing of her great power,
you bow before her, as you arise, you realize she has bowed with you and you
are now face to face knelt and smiling at each-others mirrored time-like
knowing. You are both now in the centre of the crown and all the branches flow
though the points to the centre of the jasmine flower below.
Ever so slowly,
she raises her right hand, thumb and fore finger curled and her forehead shines
a white sun, flashes of great empty throne rooms come intermitted with the
light so powerful and penetrating, golds and reds, blues and greens whites and
silver, each one you then see yourself enter, the first as king, the second as
a monk, the third as a criminal in chains and you suddenly know that each time
vision is important, for each are connected.
For what you do as king equals how you advise as the monk and how you
advise equals how you experience the pain of judgment as the criminal and how
you receive judgment as the criminal, wrongly accused and trialed, determines how
the kingdom is judged by the worlds fate, that power in your deathly cry felt
as pain. As the image fades and the
white light becomes blinding pain, you desperately hold onto the visions of
these throne rooms to determine what is being said what is being done, but you
cannot, the only thing that pervades is the symbol above each throne, one a set
of scales, the other an eagle, the last a dragons skull. As the white engulfs you, you are then made
of white light and you are both slowly lowering into the jasmine and although
in massive head explosive pain, as you get closer to the jasmine flower you
begin to feel like you can move, left or right spin, to the right causes you
almost to black out, but spinning back to the left, the pain almost stops
completely and a calm returns as the third eye light dims a little and you
begin to see again. What you see
surprises you a golden bar or what seems like a rung of a ladder appears
underneath you and between you both and slowly passes through the middles of
you both.
When the rung reaches your
third eye, you see a vision of you as a man in robes in your kitchen, your
family at dinner in a Sheppard’s hut in Afghanistan, and what strikes you in
the scene though is your white beaming eyes, and what you recognize as the same
lady as sitting opposite, has smiling white eyes too their eating with your
family in golden sunset light through the window, the vision fades and another
golden ethereal bar passes, feeling warm and tingly as it passes, this time you
are in the massive front line of a Scottish army wearing chain mail with a
giant sword at your side, again with light beaming out your eyes, and she is
there red hair flaming and quilted, then a Lama in a Tibetan monastery in deep
meditation, opening your beaming eyes suddenly, with her striking a bell above
your head, it happens again, you are a Lords lady, and your daughter runs by
chasing a butterfly with white eyes, a Greek philosopher, your young student
white eyes, an Irish King and your English enemy, white eyes at the table of
truce, a begger in Japan, white eyes in a rich geisha girl making offerings, a
child pick pocket in America, a business man white eyes, notices and doesn’t
say a thing, an African tribesman, you spear a Gazelle with white eyes fading, an
Italian chef, dancing with your white eyed love and making food, a mechanic in
Australia, wide white eyes beaming into you as you make love to each other
after a day so hot in the shed, at last you do the hucka on an island beach
facing the ocean and you see white eyes shine next to you your brother then an
Indian poet, speaking over a gathering, a young lady looks up at you and the
eyes change to white. These scenes
continue with many combinations of life all through a history you have never
seen in the billions upon billions of years of these creations these stars and
galaxies, the last being you two holding hands on a snowy mountain outside a
cave, while you watch hand in hand, giant discs of light launch into the sky,
yet two are suddenly smashed by a giant meteor the size of several cities and
only one gets away.
After these scenes come and go, you watch the woman sitting
opposite you with a powerful awe of knowing and longing and there is a final
sinking clicking jolt as you land on the flowers south petal, her on the north.
The pain gone and in its place a joy unexplainable, something impossible
perfected, the largest number known to any mathematics miniscule in the
understandings of these calculations right, here perhaps yet to be placed in
its reality, yet made between you and this woman. As the golden ladder rises
above, you both rise and know the moment intimate down to each heartbeat.
You approach arms in downward triangle hands
spread prepared, hers are embracing the sky, prepared and you both move fore-ward
onto the golden disc of this planet pollen, you both know the approaching power
and move both your arms to horizontal while staring straight into each-others
eyes, now swirling arms of galaxies round their iris’s, and you are both
breathing a indivisible line of energy connecting you both, even in breath out
breath, you feel her pulsing heart in complete harmonic equal beating energy
and the breathing, beating gets stronger, longer, widening eyes, aorta,
cerebral spirit, a swirling purple in the third eye begins and then it happens,
the center opens, you both step forward into the energy body of the other and
as your meridians align and click magnetic into their equal, it strikes, the
power comes down, a deluge of lightning sparks falls and there is nothing but
white and a sense of accelerating downward. Downward and downward you both pass
underground and the cool expanse is massive and for a moment you feel as if you
could just keep going down with the massive speed of it all, but your lover is
throwing sparks upward that take hold onto black lines there, you take the hint
and start doing the same, and the curve takes hold as you start turning this
strike of god-ship around towards the surface…
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